Happy hot 4th of July! I dislike being pregnant in the Summer. It's hot. Being hot makes me cranky and I don't want to wear clothes, but being a decent human being of society I need to wear them. :(
Several of my family members came over for a Fourth of July deep fried festival! It all started with some catfish that we asked TJ to fry up, then progressed into fried pickles, french fries, onion rings, hush puppies, and fried green tomatoes. Poor TJ and Russell were outside in the heat all day frying stuff! I woke up early that morning to clean house which made me cranky and I was so hot and uncomfortable that I cleaned house without my pants on! Yep! So sue me! It's my house and I HATE PANTS! I finished picking up then got ready. As people arrived I politely told them "I am pregnant, hot, and cranky. Tread lightly! :)!" We had a great time visiting. I did notice that at lunch no one would sit next to me. I think they were a little scared. Oh well! I ate my hot dog (no it wasn't fried, yes it was nitrate free) and felt much better after I plopped down on the couch for awhile!
Once everyone left we spent the rest of our evening watching our latest show addiction called Call the Midwife on Netflix. It's pretty good! You should check it out! The BBC has great programming!
The next day I set out early to head to Durant to host my cousin Brandy's baby shower for Miss Everly. It was a sweet party and I think she got several of the things she needed. The cake was delicious! We got it from Uptown and they did a great job!
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| My butt and belly are in a race! It's a close race! |
On Sunday, TJ and I hit up Target since they were having a baby sale. We managed to get several things checked off the list for Miss Anna. We stocked up on some diapers and wipes and got the last few things we really needed for her arrival. Other than getting sick for a little bit at Target it was a very productive trip!
On the way home I had a crazy hot pregnant lady moment and within the 35 minute trip from Target to my front door I stopped once for a cup of ice, once for a sno cone, and then one last time for a 16 pound bag of ice. I just don't like to be HOT people! I don't like it!
My Kaytie moment's- Week 33
Kaytie's birthday is July 22nd. We have known since she passed away that this day was going to be rough, so we started to think about ways to take some of the sadness away from that day. Originally, back in June, I mentioned to my mom that I might take three cards with gift cards in them up to Lakeside on Kaytie's birthday and have them give them to three new babies born that day. Nothing much, it was just an idea. Well, mom took that idea and ran with it! By the next time I talked to her she wanted to buy every baby born on July 22nd in Oklahoma a gift! She then found out how many babies that would be and scaled back to just trying to get Mercy on board since that was where Kaytie was born. It's prefect really, since Kaytie loved babies and she loved her birthday! In fact the whole family was banished from having any babies in July since it was her month and she didn't want to share! :)
We started to discuss what we could do and mom decided on a onesie, but coming up with what it would say was proving to be hard. She had found someone who we could pay to print them, but we needed approval from Mercy and words for the onesie. Finally, on July 3rd through the help of friends, Mercy gave us the okay and let us know that between 9-15 babies are born on average everyday at Mercy. So we decide to make 17 baskets. The baskets started out with just the onesie, a Fiddle Focus blanket, and a crocheted baby blanket. Then we decided to let Kaytie's friends know what we were doing and see if they would like to help or donate something for the baskets. This turned into the Live Like Kaytie Facebook Group. We created this group to keep everyone updated on what we are doing to honor Kaytie's legacy and also to create a place that her friends and family could share notes and stories about her if they would like.
The baby baskets will not be a sad thing. The notes inside simply say:
Once Upon a Time…
On July 22, a tiny bundle of joy arrived in the land!
With hugs and wiggles,
Love and giggles,
Happiness flowed forth through the grasp of a sweet little hand.
This gift is given in celebration of love experienced and hope found through new life and new beginnings on July 22!
~The family and friends of Kaytie Lenée Joiner
From his abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another.~ John 1:16 from NLT
On the back of the card it will have the web address to the Facebook group if the parents want to know more about where the gift came from. We have had so much interest from friends and family wanting to donate money or items to Kayite's birthday baskets. The money will be used to help cover the cost of getting the onesies printed and the cost of all of the basket supplies and of course any items will go in the baskets for the sweet babies!
So far this is what the basket has in it:
- Loveable, Squeezable, Kissable custom 0-3 month onesie with July 22, 2014 on the back
- Fiddle Focus Blanket
- Crocheted blanket
- Thunder Onesie and Thunder Burp Cloth
- A Cross
- Baby Travel Lotion and Soap
- A Bath Mitt
These are just the items I know what are. I have had a handful of others tell me they would mail me something for the baskets or meet up with me this week. Plus, I have had two people send a check to help with the cost. I am so excited! These babies are going to have such a special basket filled with so much LOVE! They are so lucky to be born on July 22nd!
The only weird issue with all of this is...we are doing such a happy and sweet thing, for such a sad reason. I am so excited to put this together for Kaytie. As you all know, I loved doing stuff for my sister. And no matter how old I get, I will always, always, find ways to do things for her. She is my baby sister, my best friend, and anything I can do to help her memory and legacy not fade to black I will.
Week 34-
We went to a birthing class...
This was a giant waste of time and I wouldn't recommend it! I felt like everything in that class I had already read online or in a book. TJ fell asleep, awesome, and I really just wanted to take a nap!! We saw a couple of videos of live births, which was fine, but really I don't need to see that. That's just disturbing. Plus, I had just seen the video that went viral last week of the dad with the GoPro camera rushing to the hospital. Pretty much the same thing. Sorta of. The class talked a lot about using an epidural and while I have nothing against having an epidural versus a natural birth versus a c-section, I don't like to be told what to do! Now, please take note of my mindset during this class:
- I was hot
- I was really really tired
- I was mad that there were cute pregnant women in there with their tiny baby bumps and 22 weeks along and still had the energy to look adorable. While my butt is in a competition with my belly on which one can stick out the furthest!
- I was traumatized by all the talk of tearing and at one point TJ asked me if I was okay since the color had drained out of my face!
- AND we didn't get to do the relaxation stuff since our class was too big! :(
So birth class annoyed me. It bothered me and I felt my time would have been better spent taking a nap! :)
On Sunday, I had a mini panic attack, because it was like it had all finally sunk in that we are having a baby!! Our lives are changing forever, there is no going back, she is almost here and we don't have everything ready! Or at least up to my standards of ready! I need to pack a hospital bag, I need to wash her stuff, I need to clean my whole house, I need to put up the Pack & Play, I need to install the carseat, I need to put together one more piece of furniture, I need to take a nap! :) Really, when I say I, I mean we, and when I say we, I mean TJ! :) And mommy and daddy need to run away for a minute! I just feel like we are running out of time!!
Have I mentioned the cranky pregnant lady may just need a good long nap? :)
My Kaytie moments- Week 34
I have found myself getting upset and mad this week about so many things. It was like one day I came out of this fog I had been in and realized, I'm pregnant and we are having a baby. I got mad. The reality of having this baby without Kaytie is becoming real now. I have known for the past three months that she won't be there, but now I have to face that. I actually have to have Anna without her. I am mad. I am upset that I got robbed of the first time mom/pregnant experience. It's not fair. It's not fair that everything related to Anna has been a mix of joy/heartbreak. I am mad that for the last three months I have been so consumed by all of this that TJ and I haven't been able to take time with just each other. I am mad that Kaytie is not here and that we have to experience all of Anna's first's (Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc.) as our first without Kaytie. I AM SO MAD! I'm mad that people are having bachlorette parties and getting married, I am mad every time I see a cute onesie that says something cute about an Aunt. I'm just MAD. It's not FAIR! This is dumb and I want to rewind. I told my doctor about this today and she said it was okay to be mad. It does suck. She said my pregnancy experience has been a lot more like a second time mom's experience. Life got in the way and I didn't have the time to be as caught up in it as many first time mom's. I'm glad she understands, but it doesn't make me any less mad/sad/angry/hurt. I just want Kaytie back and since I can't have that, right now, I am just going to feel all those things.
And maybe take a nap! ;)
Until Next Time,
Leigha
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