Is it worry or do I have an overly active imagination?

I tend to worry a lot! It's not continual worry, more like random crazy extremist thoughts that run through my head at strange times. Lately it seems like I have been thinking mainly about babies. I am pretty sure it's because every one around me is pregnant or just had a baby. Don't worry. We aren't ready to welcome the next Pemberton in to this world just yet (nor do I think the world is ready for that! lol!). The subject comes up often so therefore I think about it more than a normal person.

So here is a run down of horrible thoughts that run through my head...

Situation: We get pregnant

• What if we can't get pregnant?
• What if we lose the baby?
• What if something is wrong with it?
• What if I die during child birth and my kid never knows their mom?!
• What if I have high blood pressure or any of the other number of things that can go wrong during a pregnancy?

Situation: We have a baby

• What if we give them a wrong name?
• What if something happens to TJ and I have to raise them by myself or vice versa?
• What if they get cancer or some other unknown disease and they die young?
• What if we are in a car accident or a tornado or any of the other millions of things that happen to families and kids?
• What happens if they make it through childhood unscathed and join the Marine Corps (which I would support) and get killed in action?

Situation: TJ goes out of town

• What if his plane crashes and I never see him again?
• Did I tell him I love him before I got off the phone?
• What if he falls off another mountain and know one is around to help this time?
• What if his back breaks?

Situation: All things family

• I hope Kaytie and I never get in such a fight that we don't speak to each other anymore.
• I hope Jacob knows I love him.
• My parents better live forever.

Situation: Life in general

• When are we going to buy a house?
• Do we have enough of a down payment?
• What kind of mom car will I drive? 
• Will I have to trade in the Mustang?
• My house is never as clean as I would like!
• Are we going on this trip or that?
• Are we putting enough money in savings?
• Should TJ still shoot archery?
• Am I staying on top of things at work?
• I hope I am doing a good job at work.
• I need to get this weight off and it is going too slowly!

Situation: The status of the World

• What happens when we run out of electricity and I can't read my Kindle because I thought is was a good idea to only buy ebooks?
• Is society becoming more and more ignorant as we depend more on gadgets to do all the thinking for us?
• Is this really the end times?
• What if I haven't done everything I wanted to?
• Should we even bring kids in to this crazy world?
• Will the U.S. follow the path of the Roman Empire and come crumbling down?
• The U.S. has a very short history, and we grew really fast...does that scare anyone else?

It's weird stuff like this that I think about every day pretty much. Here is what is even more strange. Even though I think about these things often, they are just fleeting thoughts for the most part. I tell TJ what I am worried about and he politely says I can't believe you haven't stroked out yet and reassures me everything will be okay. I believe him too. I am more than happy with my life. I love my husband, I love my job, I enjoy the people I work with, I love planning my future with TJ, I have a great family that I adore, and my overall outlook on life is awesome!

My mind just sometimes won't shut off and that is just what it means to be me. I think about a thousand other things during the day and usually have crazy dreams as well. I don't say all this for people to think one way or the other about me. It is just they way I am and thought I would share! I should probably title this blog Welcome to my Crazy Life!